After four years with this site, I am shutting it down and moving to another. Blogger, my webhost, has been good to me. But now I am fond of wordpress, and am going to give it a try. You are welcome to read there. Good-bye website, we had a good time.

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me making a stupid decision = grounded

grounded = a very grumpy Addi

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What gets me is the whole "We'll think about what you are grounded from and talk about it later."

I do believe they are trying to make me even more miserable. Which makes me even more grumpy.....

I hate their stupid jedi mind tricks....

Just to prove how grumpy I am, here is a picture of my grumpy face.

that is all.....

Times are a changin' and I am not sure how I feel about it....

I am searching for answers to questions I never thought would come up. Conversations with God have gone something like this.

"I want you to do (insert subject here)"
"Oh Lord, surely not. Surely this is just my mind going crazy. These thoughts can't be from you."

And I am still waiting on my answer. How it will turn out? I don't know. But He is good, and nothing but good plans for my life. I was reminded of that this morning, and my how it was refreshing.

I gave my testimony Sunday night to a crowd of 200 plus people. I was so nervous that I was shaking, but when I stood up there, all of the tension, nervousness, fear; they were all gone. It went well. Err, it all went well except for the accent that I suddenly received while talking. It consisted of "My fatha is one of the Gawdliest people Iah know." Sad, isn't it? Oh well. It made for a good laugh. A friend came up to me afterwards and made a comment along the lines of "We'll get them Yankees. I can hear it in your voice." It made me smile.

Sigh, I finally finished writing my testimony for tomorrow. I must admit, I am nervous about speaking in front of a large crowd, hopefully I will do well.
Three things made my day.
1. The arrival of the new Pride and Prejudice movie. It twas shipped to my house.
2. Getting 1984, and The Snows of Kilimanjaro from the bookstore.
3. I get to go outfit shopping tomorrow in Durant for my senior picture outfit. Although I think I am doing it by myself because everyone is either busy, has to work, or just doesn't want to go. Oh well, I shall have fun by myself. :-)
4. Watching a guys make faces at me because he thinks he was cool because he drove a Pinto. He was horribly worng. Bless his heart.
Okay so that was four things. :-)

I might possibly get my camera out tonight. That makes me happy.
Okay so this was a post of no substance what so ever, but hey, everyone needs one of those now and then.

Its hard to not be angry at someone, especially when they blame you for something you did not do. Tonight she made me very angry. Playing the victim, like usual. I wanted to yell at her and tell her that her quickly made accusations were terribly wrong. But I remained silent, and pleaded with God to strike her down with lightening. Well, I wanted him to, but I know I was being a tad irrational, and my wants were wrong. It was during my conversation with the Lord that He reminded me that my anger and distrust in God was a sin. My prayer should be that instead of wanting her to be struck down by lightening, it should be to be able to see her the way God does, through His eyes. Her sins are no greater than mine. I am just as horrible of a sinner as she is, and God loves us just the same. Embarrassed, I asked God for forgiveness, and gave him my problem. It is hard to be humbled by the Lord. But I do need it every now and then.

On a brighter note my transcripts have been officially finished for the first semester, so I shall send them into the college of my choice and hopefully get an acceptance letter. Senior pictures are being taken on Sunday too.

I am so blessed. God has given me a wonderful family, that I often take for granted. I am beginning to realize that everyday.