Addison,

You need to give yourself totally unreserved to me because in me your satisfaction is to be found. And when you learn to commit yourself to me alone then, only then is the right time for you to be capable of perfect human relationship that I have planned for you long you thought at it.

You will never be united with another until you are united with me. You will never learn to speak and understand the true language of love until you hear me speak it. You will never learn how it is to love and be loved until you feel the tender touch of my LOVE.

I want you to stop planning. Stop wishing and allow me to step in and give you the most surprising and exciting plan that you can imagine. You are my child. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. Fix your eyes on me and expect the greatest things as you watch.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM. Learn all the things I tell you and be patient. Just wait. Don’t be anxious. Do not worry. Don’t look around and feel at the things others may have got. Yours will be different because I LOVE YOU.

Don’t look at things you think you want. They may not be the things I want for you. Look up straight at me because you might miss what I want to show you. And then, when you’re ready. I’ll surprise you with a lover far more wonderful than what you would ever dream of. But I won’t let you have it until you are ready and the one I prepared for you is ready, until you are both satisfied exclusively with me and the LIFE I have prepared for you.

Love,
Your Savior

She did it.

Meet Addi, your official college Senior. :)

Currently:

• unpacking
• MASSIVE amounts of laundry
• compiling my summer reading list
• smiling pretty when I see the boy
• sleeping
• babysitting my sweet boy
• laughing

"Love the Lord your God, and love one another. Love with strength and purpose and passion and no matter what comes against you. Don't weaken. Stand against the darkness, and love. That's the way back to Eden. That's the way back to life."

-Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers

Dress

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I am so in love with this dress that it should be a crime.

When I am in it I feel like a beautiful princess that can conquer the world with one smile.

Whether this is true or not has yet to be determined. :)

 

 

It’s Saturday. I think we could all use a little crazy Whitney.

"Be not afeard; the isle is full of noises,
Sounds and sweet airs, that give delight and hurt not.
Sometimes a thousand twangling instruments
Will hum about mine ears, and sometime voices
That, if I then had waked after long sleep,
Will make me sleep again: and then, in dreaming,
The clouds methought would open and show riches
Ready to drop upon me that, when I waked,
I cried to dream again." 
The Tempest (3.2.148)

That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruined choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou see'st the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west;
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest.
In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire,
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the death-bed, whereon it must expire,
Consum'd with that which it was nourish'd by.
This thou perceiv'st, which makes thy love more strong,
To love that well, which thou must leave ere long.

               -Sonnet 73

Friendship

Me: My stomach hurts baaaaaad. :(
Kendra: I'm sorry.
Me: I think I have swine flu. LOL
Kendra: Well, if you do and die can I have your ticket to Lion King on Sunday??
Me: Sure. Thanks friend.
Kendra: No problem.

You want me to do what??

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Oh man, God is teaching me a HUGE lesson in forgiveness. I'm not going to lie, its been hard. But through all this I have peace in my heart that is cheering me on. It tells me I am doing the right thing. The bullying and harassment is hard, but the conviction has been harder. Because of the persecution I am facing, God has been "cleaning house" in my heart, showing me the people I have been mean towards. Last week I emailed a girlfriend from middle school asking for forgiveness. Take my word for it. It is a humbling and not fun thing. Please, try forgiveness. It is such a freeing thing. Loads of weight have been lifted from my shoulders. Plus, who am I to ask forgiveness if I won't forgive myself?

Tonight was hard. I'm not going to go into detail because I know that might cause some trouble with a few of my readers. I could have taken tonight three different ways: I could have been rude and bitter, silent and timid, or bold and kind. It was a tough decision.
But I did what I needed to do, and I feel better for it.

Life lately has been hard, but I am so glad that I am going through this. I am learning to appreciate people and not take them for granted. I'm learning that a slanderous tongue is like a knife. I never knew how evil can cause such pain. It hurts me to think that I have hurt someone like I have been hurt.
It has also given me an overwhelming sense of the power of my Father. He forgave the WHOLE world! How amazing is that? He took every sin that I have ever commited and will commit and told me I owe Him no longer. I am so amazed and thankful.

Thank You God. Thank you for the beautiful moments in life. Thank you for the beautiful words of Shakespeare, coconut sprite, pancakes, love, smiles that take your breath away, and for the forgiveness of my Lover and Savior.

p.s. I hope no one takes this post as me being self righteous. This is not my intention at all. I just want to share what is on my heart in hopes that it will bless others.