Friendships

Friendships are hard little suckers to maintain. I think that should be needlepointed on a pillow.
While on my jog tonight I let a lot of my frustration out about some things that are going on in my life. God also showed me a few places where I am lacking and am at fault.

Lately when problems arise I tend to get scared, shut down, and wish I was back home in the city. But that in itself it useless, because I never really want to go back to my life in the city, I just want to go back to the security that I had there.
Over the past four months God has thrown me into situation after situation that was way out of my comfort zone. I had been praying that I would be placed out of my comfort zone someday, but I never knew how much I would dislike it, or how hard it would be. I remember laying many a night, these past few months, crying because I thought I was all alone here, with no friendships in sight. But once again, I did not put my trust in God that He would provide and take care of me. Now, more than ever I can honestly say that I am happy where I am. Now granted I know there will probably be many more tears in my future, but for now I am fine with being able to say I am happy. Because I never thought I would.